im trying to figure out whats too much

cheating or the fact that you can look into someone's eyes after the brave act

or

cheating or the fact you can look into someone's eyes and justify it

or

cheating or the fact that you look into someone's eyes with fierce anger and try to manipulate and show him/her down

im surprised at how all men want a woman besides them who seems like a shadow of their mums..

stands by them through thick and thin...never betrays or lies...

their future wife...their kids mother...


what surprises me is that the man should not necessarily have all or rather any of these qualities himself....and wants a woman whose nothing like he is....

i sometimes think if i was this bitchy, available chick who laid/got laid for pleasure....would i want a man whose all clean....maybe...maybe coz i want someone to help me get over my real self...someone who makes me forget "THIS IS WHO YOU REALLY ARE"

ISNT IT?....Mr. *******