overeenkomst met het
affaire avec elle
το εξετάστε
affare con esso
それの取り引き
그것에 거래
negócio com ele
deal with it!
дело с им

Fall in love or fall in hate
Get inspired or be depressed
Ace a test or flunk a class
Make babies or make art
Speak the truth or lie and cheat
Dance on tables or sit in the corner
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride...

"everything will be alright
in the end

if it's not alright
it;s not the end"

-unknown

"..The mind goes on spining a thousand and one thoughts and the mind goes on moving-in the past, in the future. How can you listen? And whatever you listen to it will not be right listening at all. You will listen to something else which has not been said at all, you will go on missing that which is said-because you will not be in tune.."

im not in love....
...im in a state of perceptual anesthesia...

30,000000 times in a second, this mind-numbing, mind-fuking feeling of immense depth in the core of cornermost element of the universe hiding away from the glory of the the strength that can never be taken away, you can take yourself...how can you take what is already taken away from you...feeling of power, of speed, of energy, of hands shivering, of thinking with an overcrowded mind, with an empty space full of overcrowing atoms rushing through the boundaries of the million things i said, through another million words that failed to penetrate into the practicalities of your imagination, as minutes tick tock against time and the retina expands into what it is not prepared to see, folded fingers gripping the palm with whatever is left in them, shying away like an amateur eucalyptus leaf from the east of your sun, setting and rising without having anyone to look at it, and i wonder what would it be like to finally SEE imagine a light that seeps through the web of your own grey dreams, a place where you never let me reside, turing it into black matter of blank labels, on a day that the earth will rise and then set in its own lustful horizon, speeding through the wee hours of the night on a road that was once intoxicated by my love in the color of the brown bruise under the eye of the wedding ring that faded in the fog of december that took it's last breath and said - Crazy Beautiful!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Js293jlB_80&feature=related

Coffee Break!

my third day at IRG-USAID..the past two days havn't been any different from today..
even though these guys asure my feet are warm with the heaters placed on both sides of my chair...and my face glows bright yellow(too many fancy lights..i sit here like i was born deaf and dumb..

im the youngest here....to make it sound worse...the person right next to my age is the 34 year old kitchen staff guy..

every second man/woman who enters this office has to have 40 strands of grey hair....so much so...i can feel mine go grey soon...

the firnags are crazy when it comes to following strict schedules:
9 am: reach office
9:10 am: tea/coffee break
9 - 10 30: work
10:30: tea/coffee break
10:30 - 12: work
12 pm: tea/coffee break
12- 1: work
1-2 pm: lunch with tv (everyone from the Chief to Office Managers eat together in the dining area
2:30 pm: tea/coffee break
3 - 4 pm work
4 pm: tea/coffee break
4-5pm: work
5 pm: Dukan Band!


this is my third day...and my stomach has gone topsy-turvy with the 6 cups of coffee they give me everyday!

"you dont know what you mean to me...

and what you make me go through"


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TpYemelPItk


some things are easier said than done...

I looked at you and i see nothing
i looked at you to see the truth..

fade into you...

i think its strange you love me...

- mazzy star

What came back to me..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5BFjw7Bh48

Can you not see!!!!!!!!!!

i dont have a boyfriend..

i just know a man who will be very upset if he finds out i said that..



- Teri Pratchet (you thought i'd say this!)

6 months....and im down 10 kgs....i've been chewing my nails...and now my fingers since yesterday that i checked my weight...

6 months back the chubby (polite for FAT) girl weighing 62 kgs....is today 52!

credit goes to all those who made sure they'd squeeze out my fat and my breath...

Thank you

Yours Truly

3 hours of "chandigarh kare ashiqui"

not a word i understand...


you're my saibba

decorative lights..
one foot crack on the windsheild..
a 2 year old blowing balloons in the air..
a 75 year old teaching me the hard facts of life..
a black label as someone's gift..

30 diyas..and lots of waiting..
yesterday it rained...today i poured..

happy diwali to those who thought they love(ed) someone..

irascible: when did i tell you i wanted to marry you..

imagery: a million chances and choices on one hand..and on the other its you..your like the ground to which im rooted..

ameliorate:i said i would never be able to look into another set of eyes..i did.....he said things would change for the better...they have changed...im yet to find out if it is for the better..

transgression: every single thing you said for over an hour today..

elysian: He has changed....he pays attention to everything i say and expect from him....this is it!

stubborn: time..

begrudging: "i meee myself.."

above mentioned are a few statements made by people today......

i dont think this one made sense at all...

Sunday Sun

prostitution of development....
selling poverty..


that wraps up my days work..



what keeps me going through the night..

Sunday Sun by Beck

i wonder how my life would have been if i din have a fresh set of 200 kids sharing on camera how much they love APJ Kalam.....sing Kishore Kumar songs and Anuradha Paudwal Bhajans......

then hear a re-mixed version of horns on the JNU road for an hour stuck in a jam...

then enter LSR...only to realize how "old" i am...

life sucks.....if i forget about about the 2 (mini) Kathi Rolls i had today...

do i still give you the ejibejees?

as i moonwalk across pages of yesterday..
yet to recieve more on what the 70mm life has in store for anxious, childlike feelings..
the beginning of a fresh set of vague moments..
conflcting thoughts overpowering the house i want on the top of the hill..
from where i can't see myself..
so used to just wanting this or that...as i curl myself up i on a cold november grass of my lawn..
happy not having it...
happy.... at peace...with whatever is left in my palm....
the aftertaste of wine that did not taste familiar anymore..

inhale...exhale...

it is amazing.....you just don't see....meee