i sat today with my elbow on the table and my right hand supporting my face...just staring at the monitor....for over 4 hours..i don't know what went through my head...maybe it was so much that none if it could be registered..and i sat numb like somone was showing me a documentary on my past life..

someone told me yesterday..my problem is that im too passionate and too idealistic..

is that really a problem! or maybe people are just too damn confused and complicated to be simple and straightforward anymore..

i have a report to write..but im running my fingers through this keyboard to write the muck in my head instead....write....how does one feel when we express things in writing...just scribble every symbol that rushes through one's system...and we beautifully lay them over a blank page like french cuisine on a white dish...

when did i get something in writing last?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRVrQsdWDds

im not like you...infact im nomore like me either

is something seriously wrong!