a little over a month with these guys and the reality hits me right on my face.....the grass really isnt greener on the other side...infact i think the other side looks quite grey..

im tired...already...something coming from a person like me...just not expected....but i work with a bunch of money making robots who travel 24/7 for making their fancy TADA in dollars...there's politics in every nook and corner, everyone is trying to cut the other person.....40 year old's tryimg to impress a girl half their age...they all say it was much better with the firangi boss.....the Oriya lad's nothing short of a Baniya.....

im the youngest here...infact so bloody young it takes time for their statements and mindset to sink in..

there us no support...absolutely none....you're on your own, yet you cant take independent decisions, and nobody's available to sit with you even for a minute..

ive worked with kids....something i call the reason for my existence..i miss getting up in the morning and working throughout the day doing things that can give these kids some direction.....something that can alter the minds of an avarage human...

i work with machines here..they are ATM machines...hate working with no passion in my heart...

disaster management turned my life into a disaster...

man! im better off getting married and growing cabbage and carrots in my kitchen garden...

i don't really know how long im staying here.....really!


P.S: very very upset