Winter blues blacks and greys......

I hate this weather.....it keeps me cranky all the time...(which is also a part of my usual nature)....no but seriously...ive been cranky enough for my guy to think of leaving me not less then 28 times in a day...not that it bothers me.......not when i know he aint goin nowhere.....n if he does i'll write an emotional blog for him that'l do the job :-)........

Like they say-anyways........so ive been cranky enough to be desperately seeking someone i could take it out on.....n u know somethin bout girls like us who've at some point of our lives ben close to the 'Greatest Mistake Of Our Lives'.....dont really have a difficulty looking for a victim....HehHehHeh!

I dreamt yesterday of the blunder i made 3years back n today i havn't been my best self.......so here's introducing you to the old bore...old enough for the grave to yawn at him.......

Lets say his name is-Mr.Old Bore......A blank, helpless sort of face, rather like a rose just before you drench it with DDT....He had a big head and a face so ugly it became almost fasciating with double chins all the way down to his stomach.......He had Van Gogh's ear for music....and was distinguished for ignorance; for he had only one idea and that was wrong.....He could never see a belt without hitting below it....He is not only dull himself, he is the cause of dullness in others....an old sausage, fizzing and sputtering in his own grease.......I'd call him a sadistic, hippophilic necrophile, but that would be beating a dead horse.....God dosent make people like him anymore...but just to be on the safer side...he shoud be castrated anyway.....Trust me...he makes a very handsome corpse and becomes his coffin prodigiously....with his French beard on he'd look as if he's eating a muskrat...

No one can have a higher opinion of him than I have; and I think he's a dirty little beast.....

The male chromosome is an incomplete female chromosome. In other words the male is a walking abortion; aborted at the gene stage. To be male is to be deficient, emotionally limited; maleness is a deficiency disease and males are emotional cripples

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Ripley's believe it or not........

The best sleep you can have is when someone whispers sweet nothings in your ears on a cold dark night........

Guess what ....my dog Ayela does that every night :-)

The Age of Lonliness.........

She left today...again...
And i felt a very deep and important part of mine leaving me....
She leaves me pretty often these days....
N i wonder if she eva looks back....
or what goes on in her head ...that keeps her from looking back...
That keeps her occupied in her 'self'.........
It's strange how on one hand i'm a part of her.....
and on the other i dont want to be like her.....
Then it strikes me.....but I AM like her....
I AM 'HER'......
She is my most cherished.....my most loved.....
The most spoilt.....at times the most hated......
...for me.....my most needed......

One man world..........

Have you ever noticed people from a moving vehicle....Few who manage to grab your attention...you fail to catch a proper glimpse of em...but they manage to hold your attention..even when youve left them.......far behind.....

I always loved the seats right next to the window.....not just coz it saves me from being sandwitched between two people who 'most definately' need to get rid of their odour......but also coz it provides me the space i need...to be with 'myself'.....

One such thing that i seem to notice quite often are people who keep talking to themselves....lotta times i wonder....do they do so to keep themselves from knowing that they are alone....Ive seen people smiling while talking to themselves....in a cranky face....sometimes even swearing,getting angry..as if there's somehthin around them that needs to change....change...something...in themselves.....

Do we talk to ourselves to FILL the gaps of lonliness....ive seen people talking to themselves while preparing for a speech or exam.....ive seen em talk when they cry in lonliness...when they call upon God.....when out of the blue moon something strikes someone's head in the middle of the bus stop and they smile thinking of something a loved one said a while back that made no sense....

Ive even seen those who dont talk aloud....not 'TALK' in the REAL sense...yet we manage to know what they said...they talk in their thoughts....thoughts....at times as clear as a newborn's heart....and sometimes as hazy as a foggy window...both....equally unique....

I too talk...sometimes aloud......the other times...in thoughts...that too aloud....have you eva heard the cacophony of thoughts...i have....at times they bother me.....make me realize how i should try to merge peoples concerns in mine....but its not in my nature to merge with the crowd.....i am on a one man's journey........like everyone else around....

Lord of The Rings - The Final Episode

Alright .....so everyone missed me right!....After all i am very busy and important.....

Wana know what i did?................Well most of it is'nt important...but for the past 24hrs i've been staring down at the ring i'm wearing around my neck...with my n bong-man's name on it.......n guess what...tis just 'Purrrr-fect'.......sometimes i can even see my teeth on it.....the ones that stick out like a vampire's..........it looks like one of those 'make a wish' rings....u hold it...close ure eyes...make the most selfish wish eva....n Voila!...it comes true.....The ring 'IS' a miracle.....but miracles i believe are natural.....i see them mould on the wheel of determination and form concrete awe-inspiring realities.....

Every night before i slept....i thought of a number of things i wanted to write about.....my computer was in my office....n i missed it....my laptop was dropped by my photogenic cat 2yrs back...we just got the body back from the repair guy...my dad still under a panic attack....disowned the cat.....i missed it too...(not the cat...the laptop)....so i did what a writer with no name or fame would do....scribble.....

The following are a few things i did during the past few days i was missing.....(besides the usual)...
-smoked up...(nothing happened)
-got bored....
-Partied...(got very bored)
-Boozed...(bored the others)
-Crapped and slept(more than usual)
-Bored...(Again!....mind it there were too many days)
-Had the BEST smoked ham sandwich eva....
-Picked my nose...(No! that wasnt me...twas ADI)
-Watched ZOOM....(Tis entertaining watching she-males dressed in mini skirts talk bout the 'Latesht Trends'
-Thought of getting a haircut done...everyday...(hav'nt reached a conclusion yet)
-Made out...(Hey! tis auspicious during the festive season)
-Noticed guys.....the 'Body building Types'....with their sister's tightest t-shirts on.....crotch-hugging jeans....long hair(the ones that could shelter a million flees in em)...shades(a must at nights).........and of course...the flashy underwear tag...'Jockey' before 'Nike'....Oh! n the ones in clubs....with the flowery...crinkly....textured...Manish Malhotra shirts.....i see em n wonder...WHAT ARE THESE GAY MEN UPTO(dont mean to offend the homo community...especially when the hetros seem to have already done my job :-)....)GOD!..GAWWWWD!



-And lastly....saw Ani bring down a GALAXY in his room.....