on a rainy day
i let the heart think
and the mind decide


the grass is vague on the other side

i came across the last reel of this film...this is where it ends

and so he entered the Angel's home,
the bestest home in the whole world,
on being greeted by the Angel's mother
he says how Angel is the bestest thing that happened to him,
and how she makes him happy
but lets just keep it to sleeping around with the Angel,
because, i madam am too young, you see
to young to know that she's 'the one'

the bestest thing that happened to me..
she takes all i give her, days when ive made her cry,
and then she lights up when i tell her i love her..

but no madam, she might not be 'the one'
because my 5 digit salary doesnt make me secure enough,
i am too young you see,
i dont know what i want,
i got it all too soon..
i was too young you see
to know that she's the one..

i want her to be with me,
but no madam, im not sure if she's 'the one'
i am too young you see..

she knows what ticks me off, and drives me crazy,
she even knows what shirt looks good on me..
i sleep with her
she wakes me up..
to seeing what the world looks from her eyes..

i love her, you know,
but im not sure if she's 'the one'
im too young you see

i know she's leaving
so i can live the life i want,
she loves me a lot,
but no madam
im too young you see..

the x ray machine

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this one is for all my friends..

dont romanticze moments once you're awake..

leave it to the dreams....dreams dont have a blunt life to live..

you do.............


life..................................is beautiful..

as long as your looking at yourself on the other side of the aisle

the day before i woke up

i sit on this wall and

wait for you whoever you

are where ever you may be

i've been sitting on this wall

since i was 17 years old just

waiting for you

whoever you are where ever

you may be to find me

i shall sit on this wall for the

rest of my life if need be..........

zingbingtringtring

you were the psychadellic rythem on my mind

when i danced naked throughout the night

Crazy Beautiful

i saw 'Before Sunset' today...

and she reminded me of someone ive known for the past 24 years..

the words she said, even the ones she did not..

it's amazing..

and then we call things rosy...

Within minutes you arrive at the Angel's house.
It is the most beautiful two - bedroom flat you have ever seen.
Upon entering you are greeted by Angel's Mother.
The Angel's Mother immediately declares that you are the bestest boyfriend her daughter has ever had.
She pats you on the head and heads for the kitchen to bake a 'special cake' just or you - the bestest boyfriend her daughter has ever had.
The Angel asks if you would like to lie in the bed with her?
You say you would love to lie on the bed with her.
You take her hand and she guides you to her bedroom.
It is the most beautiul bedroom you have ever seen.
You take off your shoes, place her beautiful beating heart between the pillows which furnish the edge of the bed.
And you just lie there waiting for the mother to bring you the 'special cake' she has baked especially for you - the bestest boyfriend her daughter has ever had.

Close my eyes and count back from 10 9
been waiting all my life
been waiting all my life 8 7
it will happen
it will happen 6 5 seconds
left i am completely breathless
4 not sure not sure love me
loves me not 3 dont go
dont go 2 seconds remain
nothing ventured nothing gained 1
please stay................please

The Wallpaper

'You are so beautiful,

Do rude things to me

Please

I beg you'


some things just strike you for no reason

Fallen sick on a journey,
In dreams I run wildly
Over a withered moor.

life ke side effects

the background:
i walked through the streets of Karol Bagh mesmerized by the crowed and the energy that floated me from one end of the market to the other..
floated coz i did'nt need to walk, the crowd just floated me through the passage even before i took a step

the myth:
people who think i am sensible and simple must also know how nice a 3 lakh solitaire white gold base ring looked on my finger today
and how i would have seriously arried a man today had he bought me that ring, seriously

basic facts:
im turning 24 this year, and something seems to have gone wierd with my family....the age factor seems to be alarming for them...


chapter 1: the unanswered questions
the more im aging / growing old, im getting more and more confused about what i want from my life. My junior from college met me after a year and the first thing that came out of the 22 year old's mouth was: ' Gauri, when do you plan to get married?'

then ofcourse there had to be suitable matches around the globe just waiting for you to turn x number of years for them to plan their 7 pheras with you

Chapter 2: Damad manufactured in the US:
Pranay...a typical Alahbadi name for a 26 year old eligible US based guy.Mummy ji already dreams of her boy settling down with the Kashmiri 'kudi' but dal gal nahi rahi hai...
poor guy, probably dreams everyday that tank pac would permanently keep their officers on board....

Climax:
i saw pyar ke side effects the third time today, once with Navdeep, then yesterday, and then today for the final time...partly because i love to pass my time watching movies after padhai likhai, and also coz i still dont understand why all of us think we want to get married / settle down in our lives with someone because we have successfully crossed an x number of years...

the synopsis:
the answer to my junior's question, and by the way...there was something similar that Pranay asked me a while back, again about settling down, something i did not have an answer for is that...
im not settled yet, and i guess i wont be till the time i don't achieve my dream...im not settling down with someone because i have turned x number of years, it has to be a lot more than that...
and till the time i dont have the answer to their questions i don't want to give it a thought..

p.s: no im not in a cranky mood....