Operation De - code

Hello....what is this thing about code language that people have...

When i was young my neighbour used a wierd lingo with her sis each time they had something to share with each other.....coulnt get a word of what they said...

Mohita had a well thought of code language each time they wanted to go dope...smoke or booze....these guys had done a P.H.D in 'fooling the folks'.....and they were good at it...

Roopa n i decided to have our own....but we turned out to be pretty sad...n roopa came up with 'chalo patte khele' for each time she wanted to go and get sloshed....
that din happen....rather my dad now worries about his daughter whose got into the act of gambling and playing cards....

Some people are quite sly.....n use pitiful statements like - 'main mareez ho gaya hoon' - which means 'im horny'......or main beemar ho gaya hoon.....which also means ' im horny'...
Get over such stupid code words!Your desperation will get you nowhere......n u know whom ill be sending Right!

Well im in no mood to work today.....wanted to go home n sleep......instead decided to write this piece of shit and put the others to sleep - Ha! Social Service - as they put it.

the 9th chapter of a thought...

Hold on
Dont move
i wont move
wont think
cant see
wont look back
wont drag
go slow...gauri go slow
be...just be...
be awake
be conscious
be free
don't expect
can't forget
i float...
freefall
wont get pulled down...
not affected..
be what i was...
what i am...
what will...i be...
become the wind...
the gliding dove
a lifeless tree..
live....
minute by minute...
inhale...exhale...
inhale....exhale...
dream...be awake...
the shadow...
of a raindrop on my window...
in my eyes..
the weight of an eyelash..
can u see...me?
the sound of the oak..
of a memory..
can you hear...?
the silence..

Clueless

Dinesh ji has been calling me an 'aadmi' or a man ever since ive joined tehelka....i wonder why...so i asked him yesterday for the nth time hoping to get some clue..

G: Is it my short hair?
D: Nope
G: Coz im tall and thin?
D: That dosent matter.
G: Coz u think i sound manly?
D: No thats not the reason either.
G: My face (even though theres nothing wrong with it, but just giving it a shot)?
D: Naaaaaaaa
G: Coz of the way i talk, sit, behave?
D: (Calmly) No.


I wonder what it is then @##$$?????!!!!?/?

Drops of Jupiter...

You make me float in you dreams..
Like dead leaves on water..

It rained yesterday....
and i stood motionless im my lawn...
trying to count the number of rain drops...
that had fallen on my palm...

As u2 sang 'all i want is you' on the radio while it drizzled outside...i saw ayela play with a new puppy in the colony...i let him in at times.....he likes to roll on my grass..

One of my cat sat on my lap trying to catch the print on my shirt...and the other waited patiently on my mango tree with the hope of feasting over a scrumptious bird meal on a rainy night..

Adi went for a wedding...said he'd be back by 12......then i realized it meant 00:00(uk time)..came at 3.....with the most disgusting cigarette smell in his mouth....ive warned him....he'd be one of those 'never been kissed' guys if he dosen stop....someday he might just realize the seriousness of my concern..

the sailor went down to the bottom of the ocean....
and her tears were all the same as the sea..

I like to live beneath the dirt..
A tiny space to loose and breathe...
Is all that I can ever need...
Ill wriggle in the earth beneath
Shout your name into the wind..
Someday I will think of you…
N if youll ever think of me..
Kneel down against the earth,
n show me what this thought is worth…

Ill never hear your voice again.............

Vous êtes devenu... ma puissance, mon plaisir, ma douleur

Nothing happens by chance, my friend...
No such thing as luck.
A meaning behind every little thing, and such a meaning behind this.
Part for you, part for me, may not see it all real clear right now,
but we will, before long.

Jai hind!

Here i am trying to wake the long asleep janta of our country to rise together for a cause and it turns out to be a dissapointment.....

Yesterday there was hardly any work...except that i had to send a mail to 635 people who had signed up for the Rang De Basanti event....call not more than 50...and help the systems guy with the website.....

so here i was writing to people how they should all come and join hands to support the protests on the Narmada Bachao Aandolan and Bhopal Gas Tragedy........while my bosses were praying that Medha shouldnt recover before the 15th (i.e,when the event gets over)...people on the indefinite fast shouldnt be tempted by the chana kulcha wala who kept hovering across them......

It was a complete dissapointment when i saw the immediate responses....these were a few:

Reply No.1: Im sorry i have chiken pox (why not bird flu u idiot!)

Reply No.2: First of all i need to know where did you get my e-mail id from? (from a rehab center)

Reply No.3: Is desh ka kuch nahi ho sakta,this is all just for one day...our country will never change....this is all bakwaas...youth can never change...why be fake? why!...(Hello kid calm down...youth like you should be strangled and hung)

Reply No. 3: Will you be there? (Yup with a stick to shove up your brain!)

Reply No.4: Wow thanks for passing the invitation...can i bring my friends and cousins along? (Baap ki shaadi hai kya!)

Reply No.5: Can i get an autograph and a picture with Aamir?pleeeeeeeeeeeeeze (yup and one with George Bush too)

I cant believe im a part of this tamasha....ill be in hell for calling innocent kids in the scorching heat to talk on an issue they'd care a shit for.......no water....a mob of people only gathered to have a glimpse of the star whose completly charmed them....driving aside the actual cause of the day...........

I long for the solitude
of a sunset at sea,
and the chill of the breeze
coming in with the eve.
For the motion of my boat,
as she swings on her rode,
and the beauty of the stars,
in the evenings last glow...

The Barbarian Barber...

This is for the 10 million girls who think keeping straight.......... long......... streaked hair is a fashion statement......

Girls....Cows move in a herd....and there exists an alpha cow amongst them....

(P.S: Who says virgos are discriminating!.........they are just bluntly straight forward)

If i were Rain........

Yesterday i met Adi's friend Rahul n we were having an argument on how he finds Tata Young hot...n how i felt all the Oriental women look the same.....dry....
here's a part of our conversation....

R: Yaar that dhoom bandi is soooooooo hot!
G: Why! she's a chink!
R: You know what ur jealous...
G: I dont want to be called hot...it sounds made up...n fake...
R: I think you are very cute....wait....you are????..................(long pause)
G: Its ok Rahul...i'll settle for Unattainable Wonderous angelic maniacly gorgeously hell of a beaaaautifuul!
R: (Long pause again).............what!...yup...if you say so....

ooooooooo im so modest....:-)

i AM

To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour

"Today, if you are not confused, you are just not thinking clearly."

"If you have only two pennies left in the world, with the first penny, you should buy rice to feed your family. With the second penny, say the wise Japanese, you should buy a lily.

The Japanese understand the importance of dreaming..."

"All that spirits desire, spirits attain."

Kahlil Gibran

imagination...

There was a child went forth every day,
And the first object he look'd upon, that object he became,
And that object became part of him for the day or a certain part of the day,
Or for many years or streching eyeless years,
The early lilacs became part of the child,
And grass and white and red morning-glories and white and red clover, and the song of the phoebe-bird..."

Hope

You know, I was gonna get sick or I was gonna get injured or something. The only choice I had, the only thing I could control, was when and how and where that was going to happen.
So, I made a rope. And I went up to the summit to hang myself.
But, I had to test it, you know. Course. You know me. And the weight of the log snapped the limb of the tree, and I couldn't even kill myself the way I wanted to. I had power. over. nothing.
And that's when this feeling came over me like a warm blanket. I knew, somehow, that I had to stay alive.
Somehow. I had to keep breathing, even though I had no reason to hope, and all my logic said that I would never see this place again.
So, that's what I did. I stayed alive. I kept breathing. And then, one day that logic was proven all wrong because the tide came in, gave me a sail.
And now here I am. I'm back. In Memphis, talking to you. I have ice in my glass.
And I've lost all. But I'm so grateful I had it once.
And I know what I have to do now. And, I keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?

cast away...

The last drop on a floating feather......

This is to inform everyone that due to extreme stress at work ive decided to commit suicide....
this world is not meant for me....
maybe i should go up and bug the people in heaven........

These are my last minute goodbyes to the few i remember as of now:

- Roopa : Your high pitched voice will continue to ring in my ears way up in heaven.

- Adi : I will continue to haunt you even when im dead.

- Sailor Boy : You will be the sole owner of my quilt...hopefully youll be enjoying it with your European chick.

- Tarun : Its a pity i wont get to see your 38 kids....and stop going to the store room!

- Bhaskar : I was falling short of subjects for your mails...you know the 26 ------....now i dont have to think bout them.

- Kaif : I'll pray one day you get out of your depression....

- Dineshji : Calm down...theres always a reason to smile....im just giving you one...

- Ayela : Start behaving like a dog....stop chasing my cats....

- Shukla : See you in hell!

There are those i dont remember and few i dont want to remember.....so be it....

Au Revoir!

Chaque jour est un bruit silencieux.....chaque jour....

premier fauchage
la rouille de l'année
disparaît dans l'herbe


the first mowing
the rust of the year
disappears in grass

Dazed.....

DOES ALCOHOL GET THE WORST OR BEST OUT OF YOU....
DOES IT MAKE ONE SAY WHATS TRUE OR WHAT ONE WANTS TO.....
NO CLUE....

Dineshji Episode no-2

Ticked off working on my computer...i blasted into a laugh when i read Dinesh writing the following to sign up for Yahoo messenger:

Yahoo id: dinesh@hotdog.com

i have no words for him....he has a 6 year old kid...and a 5 year olds brain...