yesterday i spent 13hrs making out with a keyboard.....by the end of it, when i crawled down the stairs of my lavish concrete office space, i had misplaced my senses in one of the polished wooden drawers under my table....

belive it...more than what im trying to "forecefully make you believe"...it was "the most stressfull day in the history of my short working life..."

at nine in the morning i sat working on my first ever quarterly report that had to be sent to the big daddy's office (all of us have one)...and when i realized my left leg had gone numb it was 4 in the evening....10 mins break on my green terrace garden (most of which was spent on waking my long slept leg)...i was back on my seat.....

the report's gone....and hopefully the big daddy will find it ok.....but i still havent managed to revive all of my senses back...


i need a holiday(s)

Quest World...How much for the Taj tents in Jodhpur?

overeenkomst met het
affaire avec elle
το εξετάστε
affare con esso
それの取り引き
그것에 거래
negócio com ele
deal with it!
дело с им

Fall in love or fall in hate
Get inspired or be depressed
Ace a test or flunk a class
Make babies or make art
Speak the truth or lie and cheat
Dance on tables or sit in the corner
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride...

"everything will be alright
in the end

if it's not alright
it;s not the end"

-unknown

"..The mind goes on spining a thousand and one thoughts and the mind goes on moving-in the past, in the future. How can you listen? And whatever you listen to it will not be right listening at all. You will listen to something else which has not been said at all, you will go on missing that which is said-because you will not be in tune.."

im not in love....
...im in a state of perceptual anesthesia...

30,000000 times in a second, this mind-numbing, mind-fuking feeling of immense depth in the core of cornermost element of the universe hiding away from the glory of the the strength that can never be taken away, you can take yourself...how can you take what is already taken away from you...feeling of power, of speed, of energy, of hands shivering, of thinking with an overcrowded mind, with an empty space full of overcrowing atoms rushing through the boundaries of the million things i said, through another million words that failed to penetrate into the practicalities of your imagination, as minutes tick tock against time and the retina expands into what it is not prepared to see, folded fingers gripping the palm with whatever is left in them, shying away like an amateur eucalyptus leaf from the east of your sun, setting and rising without having anyone to look at it, and i wonder what would it be like to finally SEE imagine a light that seeps through the web of your own grey dreams, a place where you never let me reside, turing it into black matter of blank labels, on a day that the earth will rise and then set in its own lustful horizon, speeding through the wee hours of the night on a road that was once intoxicated by my love in the color of the brown bruise under the eye of the wedding ring that faded in the fog of december that took it's last breath and said - Crazy Beautiful!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Js293jlB_80&feature=related

Coffee Break!

my third day at IRG-USAID..the past two days havn't been any different from today..
even though these guys asure my feet are warm with the heaters placed on both sides of my chair...and my face glows bright yellow(too many fancy lights..i sit here like i was born deaf and dumb..

im the youngest here....to make it sound worse...the person right next to my age is the 34 year old kitchen staff guy..

every second man/woman who enters this office has to have 40 strands of grey hair....so much so...i can feel mine go grey soon...

the firnags are crazy when it comes to following strict schedules:
9 am: reach office
9:10 am: tea/coffee break
9 - 10 30: work
10:30: tea/coffee break
10:30 - 12: work
12 pm: tea/coffee break
12- 1: work
1-2 pm: lunch with tv (everyone from the Chief to Office Managers eat together in the dining area
2:30 pm: tea/coffee break
3 - 4 pm work
4 pm: tea/coffee break
4-5pm: work
5 pm: Dukan Band!


this is my third day...and my stomach has gone topsy-turvy with the 6 cups of coffee they give me everyday!