205920 seconds = estimated number of times i have inhaled/exhaled since..

in the midst of unprecedented rain, the african spider dances round and round....rejoicing twisting his thin manipulative legs... trying to confuse the vulnerable prey...

what the spider does not realize is how vulnerability changes sides... caught in it's own web, the spider turns prey to its own feed...

"...love man not less...but nature more"

two days since the 'character sketch' has been up
3 eligible dogs on heat have already shown their keen interest.

its so cool to click "REJECT" for someone...i ve started to enjoy this game

where's my dark knight?

ive been asked by just too many people to try out one of the matrimonial sites for my future prospects..which seems pretty dull if i keep shunning men around me...i dont know why none of them (family that is) dosent recommend me any dating site..maybe the idea of a f*** after marriage sounds better than f*** before the official commitment.

However strange this may seem..i have actually decided to go ahead with the option...and post my "character sketch" on shaadi.com..

The idea seems quite intriguing...i wish to see this scenario i.e. the matrimonial portal as a huge buffet...too many dishes...id wana try some, ignore some..and hog on the one that i find best... (not such a good example)..

so here is the "get to know me" text - a clear reflection of who i am (have become):
i am 25 in 2 months (in case i dont kill myself drinking too many breezers), love alcohol, love work, often get screwed (at work that is), otherwise its been a while, pleasantly suicidal, intensely murderous, 4 years experience in the developmental sector, 5 in the mental sector, expert training in handling abusive, immature, hyper, confused men..training in weeping using all possible vocal chords by three expert national level trainers, along with a crash course in fighting using both traditional indian and british abuses..

...im still working on it...


yours (blushing..:))

it's a miracle..that took 7 months and a lot of office politics to take shape..

i took a leave from work yesterday..because..i was tired...

instead..i bought silver...satisfied my taste buds with thai jumbo prawns..and came face to face with my friend's ghostly mother..


slept for 11 hours yesterday..and 10 today..

couldn't get any better..

(p.s. but then i have a quarterly report staring through my laptop that i need to complete...damn!...reality strike 1)

he looked into her eyes trying to sell her the most romantic line from mills and boons..

she burst out laughing in disgust..

ouuch!

the line that sank somewhere in a calender

210 red strikes on a calender

120 additional pencil marks this year

the year that left and the one thats half way through

its 11th july

i dont love me no less..
i only started to love myself more

I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY

THEY SAY - "GET A LIFE"

I SAY : "NO!"

maybe this sounds better

i am the "Tryptophan" of my life

"we used to be in love at one point of time..
now we're like a married couple - fighting, struggling, bored"


hearing stuff like this makes me question the very foundation of commitment and love..if at all they were borne from the same nerve.

i plan to go to a dating / matrimonial institute in some days...all prepared to fail in finding the most simple qualities i seek in a man besides no cheating, no illegitimate kids and is happy to cook breakfast (occasionally happy to add the other two meals as well...yeh zyada ho gaya shayad)


learn to do things first before asking/expecting for the same and acknowledge every little thing one does to keep things nice n happy..these are words of an experienced failure...

in reality...madam celestial..the only person you need to be completely gaga- gugu over is yourself....by expecting someone else to treat you that way means your accept yourself to be a commodity....simple

i think we can finalize the dates for our mountain retreat now...end of july / first week august??