the god of big problems!!!!!!!!!!!

O.K im not being preachy...just making that clear...but the following text (please add the title of this blog to it) was sent to me a minute back by my colleage...the 2nd consecutive day...is someone playing games with me!!!

this is what she had sent me..:

Once a young man came to a revered teacher, who was seated under a tree near a beautiful lake, and asked for the solution for his unhappiness.
After some minutes of conversation the old master kindly instructed the visitor to put a handful of salt in a glass of water and then to drink a few mouthfuls. How does it taste?? the teacher asked. Awful, said the apprentice after he had spat out the revolting liquid a few paces away.
The teacher chuckled and then asked the young man to take another handful of salt and put it in the lake. The two walked in silence to the nearby lake and when the youngster swirled his handful of salt into the lake, the old man told him, Now drink from the lake.? As the water dripped down the young man?s chin, the master asked him again, How does it taste??

Good! he replied. Do you taste the salt?? asked the Master. No,said the young man. The Master sat beside the troubled youth, took his hands, and said, The pain of life is pure salt; no more, no less. The amount of pain in life remains the same, exactly the same. But the level of pain we taste depends on the container we put it into. So when you are in pain, the only thing you can do is to enlarge your sense of things. Stop being a glass. Become a lake. And you can become a lake where you broaden your outlook; when you stop looking only at yourself and your own miseries. Look at life as a whole and the many things without which you would not be what you are today - your friends, family, hobbies, nature around you. When you are confronted with a problem, you see only the problem and ruminate over it endlessly which only makes the situation more tragic. Think of previous instances when things were better.Never compare yourself negatively with others. You are a unique person .

what the hell! that makes it two signs in two days......

today as i drove for work i happened to see a wall on Safdarjung road that said:

"What Goes Around Comes Around"

......man this is strange!

i know it does

Errrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Of implication, insinuation and ill will,
'til you cannot lie still,
In all this turmoil, before red cape and foil
come closing in for a kill
Come feed the rain

-Poets of the fall "Carnival of Rust"

there are no wrongs and rights in life
only convenient and not-so-convenient

just because people dont understand you
doesent mean you're an artist

a little over a month with these guys and the reality hits me right on my face.....the grass really isnt greener on the other side...infact i think the other side looks quite grey..

im tired...already...something coming from a person like me...just not expected....but i work with a bunch of money making robots who travel 24/7 for making their fancy TADA in dollars...there's politics in every nook and corner, everyone is trying to cut the other person.....40 year old's tryimg to impress a girl half their age...they all say it was much better with the firangi boss.....the Oriya lad's nothing short of a Baniya.....

im the youngest here...infact so bloody young it takes time for their statements and mindset to sink in..

there us no support...absolutely none....you're on your own, yet you cant take independent decisions, and nobody's available to sit with you even for a minute..

ive worked with kids....something i call the reason for my existence..i miss getting up in the morning and working throughout the day doing things that can give these kids some direction.....something that can alter the minds of an avarage human...

i work with machines here..they are ATM machines...hate working with no passion in my heart...

disaster management turned my life into a disaster...

man! im better off getting married and growing cabbage and carrots in my kitchen garden...

i don't really know how long im staying here.....really!


P.S: very very upset

not traped between the good, the bad and the ugly..

i begin where a circle decides to end..

in between deadlines, office egos and rivalries...the eraphone in my right ear keeps me grooving with a song called 'Puth Jatt Tha (street mix)' by a lad called Jassi Sidhu

you can pretty much take my word for the fact that i can't seem to understand a word of what he says...but i love it.....love it like a love struck pup...

my valentine with Jassi ji!

'Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me
and all other people

And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you'

-you and me

nothing lasts forever....especially not love


but



what would you attempt to do
if you knew you could not fail.....

yesterday i spent 13hrs making out with a keyboard.....by the end of it, when i crawled down the stairs of my lavish concrete office space, i had misplaced my senses in one of the polished wooden drawers under my table....

belive it...more than what im trying to "forecefully make you believe"...it was "the most stressfull day in the history of my short working life..."

at nine in the morning i sat working on my first ever quarterly report that had to be sent to the big daddy's office (all of us have one)...and when i realized my left leg had gone numb it was 4 in the evening....10 mins break on my green terrace garden (most of which was spent on waking my long slept leg)...i was back on my seat.....

the report's gone....and hopefully the big daddy will find it ok.....but i still havent managed to revive all of my senses back...


i need a holiday(s)

Quest World...How much for the Taj tents in Jodhpur?

overeenkomst met het
affaire avec elle
το εξετάστε
affare con esso
それの取り引き
그것에 거래
negócio com ele
deal with it!
дело с им

Fall in love or fall in hate
Get inspired or be depressed
Ace a test or flunk a class
Make babies or make art
Speak the truth or lie and cheat
Dance on tables or sit in the corner
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride...

"everything will be alright
in the end

if it's not alright
it;s not the end"

-unknown

"..The mind goes on spining a thousand and one thoughts and the mind goes on moving-in the past, in the future. How can you listen? And whatever you listen to it will not be right listening at all. You will listen to something else which has not been said at all, you will go on missing that which is said-because you will not be in tune.."

im not in love....
...im in a state of perceptual anesthesia...

30,000000 times in a second, this mind-numbing, mind-fuking feeling of immense depth in the core of cornermost element of the universe hiding away from the glory of the the strength that can never be taken away, you can take yourself...how can you take what is already taken away from you...feeling of power, of speed, of energy, of hands shivering, of thinking with an overcrowded mind, with an empty space full of overcrowing atoms rushing through the boundaries of the million things i said, through another million words that failed to penetrate into the practicalities of your imagination, as minutes tick tock against time and the retina expands into what it is not prepared to see, folded fingers gripping the palm with whatever is left in them, shying away like an amateur eucalyptus leaf from the east of your sun, setting and rising without having anyone to look at it, and i wonder what would it be like to finally SEE imagine a light that seeps through the web of your own grey dreams, a place where you never let me reside, turing it into black matter of blank labels, on a day that the earth will rise and then set in its own lustful horizon, speeding through the wee hours of the night on a road that was once intoxicated by my love in the color of the brown bruise under the eye of the wedding ring that faded in the fog of december that took it's last breath and said - Crazy Beautiful!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Js293jlB_80&feature=related

Coffee Break!

my third day at IRG-USAID..the past two days havn't been any different from today..
even though these guys asure my feet are warm with the heaters placed on both sides of my chair...and my face glows bright yellow(too many fancy lights..i sit here like i was born deaf and dumb..

im the youngest here....to make it sound worse...the person right next to my age is the 34 year old kitchen staff guy..

every second man/woman who enters this office has to have 40 strands of grey hair....so much so...i can feel mine go grey soon...

the firnags are crazy when it comes to following strict schedules:
9 am: reach office
9:10 am: tea/coffee break
9 - 10 30: work
10:30: tea/coffee break
10:30 - 12: work
12 pm: tea/coffee break
12- 1: work
1-2 pm: lunch with tv (everyone from the Chief to Office Managers eat together in the dining area
2:30 pm: tea/coffee break
3 - 4 pm work
4 pm: tea/coffee break
4-5pm: work
5 pm: Dukan Band!


this is my third day...and my stomach has gone topsy-turvy with the 6 cups of coffee they give me everyday!